#1 - 1997

I stuck my hand in the fire

I put one foot in the grave

When the rain came to drown everything

I was waiting in place

With my mind on an island in the vacant sea

It was terribly silent

No one ever talks to me

I’m in need of a doctor or shock therapy

Won’t you please wipe my memory clean?

I wanna be clean again

I wanna live like I’ve never been torn in two parts

I wanna be strangers again

I wanna exhume your body

Consume your heart

Make art of your every organ

I awoke with a start

My teeth on the gravel

In dampness so dark

Too deep to unravel

I thought I was alone but the ground began to scurry

And I followed my new friends home

We live without worry

(crawling through mossy cracks)

No heartbreak or hurry

(no one to blame no reason for shame)

I’m never coming back

What a lie I’ve become

All my senses have numbed

So I cut and I bleed

And you all drink of me

While I slowly drift asleep

I wanna be clean again

I’ll never be clean again